For Children in Wartime

 

This is the art class.

The theme of the lesson

is Sarajevo in springtime.

On a sheet of A4 appears a street

with its men and women

                                scattered

on their backs;

red balloons

from their insides

                        pop

on the pavement.

Cars in the background

are shot full of holes.

The artist is twelve and a half.

 

In her neighbour’s piece,

a zigzag across the window

is perhaps a smashed windshield.

The roof is literally flying

off one house,

a twist of orange flame

spiralling upwards.

 

A hush descends as twenty

small heads bend over

a fresh set of drawings.

Doors, closed,

have the faces of people frightened.

Trees weep out tears the size of snowdrops.

 

A pair of spectacles lies on the street,

next to a man with closed eyes

looking very dead.

But that’s not me, hearing still

the mortar level the walls,

sniper bullet hit

somewhere across the courtyard.

Cities are going

but what’s to hold up a wax crayon?

Children know

that pictures cannot be stretched too far.

School’s in progress

as if it were a prayer—

about how it was supposed to be.

(stanza break)

Just six feet from me

the lawn’s growing wild

below the daily reticent

                         jasmine;

each blade an argument

of this season’s excesses.

Without raiders, this street is fine.

But, alas. I too can’t

write from the point of view of grass.

 

                                    Alamgir Hashmi

 

 

 

(First published in The Pakistan Times)

 

© Alamgir Hashmi

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

PEOPLE

(For the Sondhis)

 

From Kashmir you came to Lahore

to wed this handsome man of economics

(come from Jullundur, via Indore)

who played Hamlet in the same breath

as he lectured to fix

each flower in its place

in the College gardens,

expecting they would nod ever

to the lightest breeze

with an English sense of purpose.

Even the winter terms were pleasant.

Hockey matches could warm the spirit

as in the Forties nearly each stick

trained for the penalty stroke.

Evenings were rose-walks and tea.

It was this knowledge—

life held together by choice, where one is

and will be, within a peashooting chance.

 

Come 1947 podding to fruit and fall away,

the vegetal crease split,

seed and flower scatter by the hour.

The College clock, no matter how

you rewind it, rarely agrees

with Pakistan Standard Time.

The fountain named after you vents bubbles

of some ghostly speech no play-actor can use.

 

Anyway, you two that side of the border,

christian-and-hindu visited sometimes here

your muslim daughters happy in their

families. Thus years went sliding

like the snow round your hill-house

between Simla and Kasauli.

You were away then briefly.

Those sweet-scented flowers you left for him

were snuffed out in his sunless room.

He was asleep,

buried where the har-singhar

sheds its flowers

timely.

                                                                        (stanza break)

 

You changed country again,

back in Lahore to what connects you—

no, not the land that deludes

its own voice, but one last inflection,

the stem stitch of family—serial views

of just how it should be:

your daughters to their husbands objured,

the grandchildren and great-grandchildren

growing, filling in like houseplants, pets.

What you lost of them you would not see.

Pain was the only potion you knew

which could overcome the memory.

Today, in your blue-cushioned chair

waiting for tea, about to comb your hair,

you take your final leave.

Your husband dead elsewhere,

the gods, still vigilant, claim you,

each in his own name:

you were courteous;

your grace now beyond question.

Parishioner, priest and passer-by all know

the right words to action, your body below.

 

As if you had wished it, on this bright

spring day, a thoughtful tahli

bow-waves a kindly shade;

imprinting here what you see, can’t see.

A shower of rose petals slowly

fades in the fresh earth.

Over and over they come, settle down.

This must be the way love is made.

 

                                    —Alamgir Hashmi

 

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This poem was read by the poet at the Foreign Service Academy, Islamabad, on 08th April, 1995. The late Professor G. D. Sondhi was the first non-British Principal of the Government College, Lahore, and died in India in 1966. Mrs Enid Lila Sondhi, ninety-five, died in Lahore in March this year (1995).

 

 

 

(First published in The Pakistan Times)

 

©  Alamgir Hashmi